Everyone is doing more.

Do you ever start to think everyone is doing more than me? I mean good deeds whether it be at home or in the community. I talked to a woman last night who said she makes her own baby food. I did this before for my 5th child but never revisited it with subsequent children. Other people are going to lectures,taking classes,homeschooling for years, cooking from scratch, volunteering etc. It makes me exhausted. I ask myself am I doing enough and what's really important? I know I could be doing more, but what? I know that some things don' t matter and won't be asked about on the day of judgement like making baby food or cooking so I can scratch those off my list but I worry about other things like am I giving my kids a good islamic education. I know I'm not because I don't have the experience and knowledge to do things like teach them quran. Going to conferences is out of the question right now with a baby and I do listen to cds and online but then knowledge must be implemented.  I hate this coasting feeling. I want to feel like part of something dynamic and I'm tired of the resistance from other muslims. I know I need to go to the next level, I've done it before but I'm stymied about how to get there under my present circumstances. Every blogger that is so inspiring must have started with baby steps but we never hear about that because they come on the scene full blast. Of course you can't take the first step if you are the type to be bogged down by laziness and procrastination and if you are read.this. Sometimes we need a mentor and that's something hard to find especially for converts who have no muslim family. Where am I going with this post? Not sure but I feel lost at sea and need to find my bearings. Advice?